I actually have no life. i can;t even look forward to weekends anymore because i just have so much work to do :( life sucks so bad :P I have so many breakdowns and at times.. i feel that there is no one here for me to talk too. Y DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE SO HARD. WHY ?

OHH YEE BOY. Holidays are coming up.. i can;t wait. i have alot of work to do but i can balance it out and hopefully i will get it all done <3 :D halfway through year 12 wooooooooooooooo. BRING ON THE OTHER HALF BABY <3 ITS A BLOODY RACE TO THE END. Then i will be free…. with B forevverrrr xoxo <3 

No cheerful life no more… everything is sad and grey.. i just want to escape and leave.. maybe start a new life…then my parents might be in peace at last.. they hate me.

A photo was taken of my fat rolls today when i was sitting down. discussed i was… maybe i should just stop eating or start halfing my meals and that way i will be half of who i am in no time….. my b might like me better if i am skinnier and i might be better looking…. i want skinny legs, i want to be toner i want to be able to see my bones . i guess it is everything i am not. i hide this from everyone else. it is my inner feelings that no one knows about.